My Progress

Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy Birthday to ME!

Today is my 45th birthday and while I am 'over the moon excited' that I am so close to the healthy and happy life I envisioned for myself I am a little pissed off too. I keep saying that I am thinner than I have been in 20-25 years and I think "what the ...." why did I let so many years slip by without making the changes I knew needed to be made? Part of me thinks I should stop worrying about that and enjoy where I am but it is still nagging at me. As great as I am doing now how much farther could I be if I hadn't wasted so much time?

I found a really great quote online the other day -

‎"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." ~ Anonymous

I guess if anyone might be reading this and is still struggling my best advice would be to start that brand new ending RIGHT NOW! Don't waste another day eating crap and not moving because time is too short and it flies by way to fast! Don't wait until you are ill and are trying to fix yourself before you die, don't wait until you are a borderline diabetic, just don't wait!

The clock is ticking and as happy as I am now, I could have felt like this 20, 10, or even 5 years ago but I chose sugar and fat over my hopes and dreams of being healthy, fit, and feeling sexy.

So there I have said it out loud and can move on, leaving my few regrets here for someone else to use and learn from; I will not be pining away for lost time but enjoying this new life I have created for myself. I will work everyday to keep moving forward and working my ass off so that I never go back there.

My goals this year are lofty - I am doing the STP which is a biking event where you ride 204 miles from Seattle to Portland over the course of two days and yes I am scared to death! But I am not the same girl who spent 20 years in denial and hiding from life with a box of Oreos to keep me company while I watched everyone else tackling exciting and seemingly impossible feats.

Now I am the woman who delights in a challenge and everyday I surprise myself by doing something new. Today by the way, I found out that I can do military style push ups while moving down a plastic ladder lying on the floor - I made it halfway down the row and did about 15 push up's in the process :-). I am the woman who when my trainer says I am going to do something that sounds insane, I think "ok" I'll try that.

One last "yay me" thing to share is that today I wore my goal size 10 jeans to breakfast with my family! THAT was MY gift to the girl who spent so much time disappointing herself by not living up to her true potential.

...and I rocked them!


Julie said...

Happy Birthday!!! Fabulous post! And you are so right about no longer wasting time regretting the things we did not do. Just live in the now and enjoy!

Funny I just bought my first pair of size 10 jeans in about 10 years this weekend....feels good, no feels great! Congrats to you!

Raegun said...

That is a fabulous quote - thanks for sharing it. For many years I discounted myself as too fat to do the things I wanted to do. I let life pass me by. Lately, I've been grabbing life by the horns and not letting excuses deter me from getting what I want. Guess which approach works?! :) Happy birthday and here's to an incredible 2011!

to dream the KIMpossible dream said...

Awesomely inspirational post! Happy Birthday and Happy New Year!

~ Darla ~ said...

Don't just think about it - Do it! I would never, ever have guessed you were 45. Not that that's old, but you look so young. See what good eating and exercise will do (ummm, I'm talking to me).

Kelly! said...

Thanks so much for your support and Happy Birthday! haha I know that I get down on myself for not being healthy by now but I don't even know what it feels like. Seeing you say that I don't want to waste any more time is fueling me so much I'm heading to the gym! so thank you and I will be following :)